Thank you, Mom

Okayy..Let's see what I wanna write.

It has been months that Im not so of being a happy Kyle.
(pause: Damn, I dun like my notebook (my sister's) keyboard. Not nice to type! Yea, my sister let me use her notebook. But we will share, so yea. My sister likes to buy lots of things and I dunno why. She has Desktop and she bought a Laptop. So right now I have two notebooks at home, One desktop at work. mmmm, Lots of space!)

Lots of Mood Swinging going on, apparently.
Why? Why? Why?
(pause: Damn, This perfume smell always comes out when it doesnt really need to)

Anyway, I will be starting my new role at work which would be a transition to another role as what boss told me so. A lil bit of a Junky Role thou, that's what I feel. But, as a learning experience, ya know - it's just all good. Am I too optimistic, in that way?

Anyway. How are you, my dear Reader? Im not so good! I hope I will get a lil much better after typing all these out.
But ya know, Happy Belated Thanks Giving to you! Thanks for reading my blog.

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hmm..
I miss you, Mom!
I sort of need you, right now.

There will never be Pink Shirt Parcel in my room, when I intend to have a Pink Shirt like last time. How did you know I wanted a Pink Shirt?
I seriously want a lot of white shirts now, Mom. From you will be Fantabulous.

and Mom..... ya know, when there's no money - that means NO MONEY because you are not around, not anymore.
Am I spending too much? I have not saved a single $ every months.

People, if you don't really know yet, My mom is my everything. She got me everything I wanted. She gave me every strength I needed. I am extremely independent since a young age but however, I never could have lived without my mom soul.

And I remember one time- you mentioned just once saying " You are very handsome ". Those words from you are worthless and way much better than getting mails from girls saying Im looking good. I will pay whatever money and things I have right now to hear it again, Mom.
( Damn, Im crying again.......)
God, I need to stop crying!

No one knows that I feel so lonely without you at times.
Ya know, Thanks that you have been a proud mom of having a son like me. Because I am still so proud that you have been a greatest Mom of all I know.
( Im crying again, mom. Please, let me. I need to get all my tears out, but I promised I wont cry as much for good in the future )

:-) ok.....

Idontwannawriteanymore.
Mom, I love you.
and Sorry, Im abit late to wish a Happy Thanks Giving to you from my very heart but I know you wont mind. Thanks for everything, Mom! You were the best and you will always be.

and Kyle, you're OK!

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